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Women Waiting

Thursday, January 28th, 2010

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I am a woman who is so, so lucky to be in a network of wise women of master retreat coaches from all over the US.  This morning I was on a call with a few of these coaches and there was this theme, a thread, that ran through the hour long conversation.   The strand was like this:   The end of the first month in 2010 is rapidly approaching and “it’s so not what I expected” or “I’ m not walking a straight line with scheduling retreats”  (Yours Truly).  We spoke about women waiting… how we women spend a lifetime waiting…..waiting for our children to be born, waiting for them to take their first steps, waiting for our periods to start, waiting to find the love of our lives,  waiting for our first job to come through…..we are women waiting.

And Helene Van Manen, our leader and retreat coach mentor  Coach Helene sang us the song…

“We are women waiting

We are waiting

We are waiting for our children to remember to return.

We are women waiting”

I am waiting now for life to unfold in the manner it’s going to be this year.  I know that I will be out on three military assignments; one of them will be with my beloved.  I know that my son and his fiance are getting married.  And I know that I will be 60 soon and that I will celebrate.  And I know that everything can change in the blink of an eye.

This journey is one of trust.  And as Michelle Burns  Coach Michelle said on this call, “there is a gift in waiting and receiving.   Remember the Divine Feminine.”   I know that I have seen this feminine power  so many times at my retreats…..women receiving support and help from each other.   There is power in not knowing although it drives most of us crazy because we don’t know and it’s scary not to know.   There is such power in waiting and trusting.  Trusting that it will unfold in exactly the perfect manner for us to learn.

Other voices…. DianeMueller Coach Diane. “Realize the quality, not the quantity.”     As masters level retreat coaches, this is what we do.  We recognize that we are listening and waiting on a deep level to know what is right.  And each of you reading this, I challenge you as well to really listen to your life now.  I believe  that it is in the quality of your day that counts,  not in how much you can cram into the day.

And I was reminded by yet another wise woman on this call, Lois Perron  Coach Lois that sometimes even though we can’t see it at the time,  there is a reason that we are keeping our schedules open and that something bigger and more suitable for us can happen in those slots that are not filled.  Lois reads her journal from the previous year and sees how events happened unexpectedly, without her planning it and discovers that there were  delicious opportunities that she realized happened that might not have happened if she had filled that space ahead of time.

“You were wild once. Don’t let them tame you.”-Isadora Duncan

I am a woman who is waiting and like Helene, I want to live wild. I don’t want to be tamed.   I want to be in joyful waiting.  I want to live in joyful acceptance vs worry.    What is the way that you want to live?

We are women waiting…..

Master Retreat Coaches on Retreat in Colorado

Master Retreat Coaches on Retreat in Colorado

STORMY WEATHER

Wednesday, January 20th, 2010

The wind is bending the bamboo in my backyard down to the ground.  I look out the sliding glass door  and  see the skinny stalk of  bamboo that seems to reach to the sky.  It leans and gives when the wind comes and then for a few moments stands back upright.  It twists and turns but when the wind stops, it goes back to its normal state.   Wait, not exactly.  I look again and I realize it’s bowed, not quite straight up like before…..before the storm came.

I’m thinking on this blustery, rainy day how life can blow us over, bend us and just when we think we’re going to break,  the “wind” in our lives jolts us and we stop bending or swaying.  One thing for sure, we have to be able to go with the wind;  if we fight it too much, we will break in half. 

So what is the secret of bending, I wonder?  Is it about surrender?  Is it about allowing ourselves to feel all the emotions that we can when the winds come?  Is it about trusting and knowing that we will return to normal or that we will be forever changed, never to be quite as straight as we once were and that it’s okay to be that way?  Isn’t this the lesson of life?  Letting go of the straightness and riding with the wind no matter how much we want to be straight.   Is it about letting go of the fear that we will break? Is it about relinquishing control?   Tell me the answers, bamboo.  I’m waiting.   

Bamboo:  “I am the one who leans and bends.  I am the one who is not alone…there are others who are bending with me.  I am the one who takes hard hits and I keep getting back up.  I am the one who just is.  I just am.”

Today is a remembrance of someone who took his own life.  He couldn’t bend anymore or perhaps he got tired of bending or he just gave up being.   He couldn’t wait for the winds to stop I guess.   The impact for his family is monumental as they now bend and sway with their own winds.  Stormy weather.