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Altitude Freakiness

Friday, February 19th, 2010

There’s nothing like a retreat to return home refreshed and renewed. This past week, my hubby and I flew to the snowy mountains of Colorado for a couples’ retreat with my retreat coach mentor, CoachHelene and her husband, Dave Van Manen.

Oh yeah and if you haven’t been in a cold climate before, Pike’s Peak in February is definitely the place to be.  OI!  We were lucky that the road was open all the way to the top and so we drove the narrow road that had steep drop offs into nowhere with snow blowing everywhere. It felt a bit surreal to drive all the way to the top and since I’m traveling with a professional photographer, I volunteered to drive up the mountain.  I didn’t go over 25 mph and I just kept my eyes straight ahead.

A couple at the top

Okay, the photo here shows us at the summit and looking somewhat normal.   It was 3 degrees below zero…so when you look at the picture of me smiling, just know it was blizzard like conditions.  I’m not sure how I got the muscles in my face to smile.    It felt so on the edge of abnormal.

We tried to thaw out inside the gift shop/restaurant a few feet away.  And this is when the whirly birds started.  14,000 feet can do strange things to your body.  At first I thought it was my imagination, the pressure in my chest, combined with the feeling that my head was very enlarged and fluffy;  I kept checking myself to see if I was even thinking straight. I’ve never experienced anything like it.    I looked over at Thom and he seemed to be doing okay but I knew instinctively that he was suffering.   I saw a woman devouring a chocolate covered donut and I just knew right then that I had to get out of there.

We both agreed in a stupor that we needed to get back down the mountain as soon as possible.  And so we did.   At 10,000 feet I decided that I was hopelessly sleepy and exhausted.   I looked over at Thom…he didn’t look too good but like all crazy photographers, you know, they still want to stop and take pictures.  Afterwards we discovered all his pictures had this strange  out of focus quality to them with the wrong exposure.   Hmmmm.

I was thinking that when we get overwhelmed and overscheduled that life does become just like the high altitudes.  Weird, out of balance, freaky, a little bit edgy.   And the best we can do is get down the mountain and back to ourselves and spend time nurturing ourselves.  Unless of course we choose to stay on the edge.

The skinny road to the top of Pikes Peak

The skinny road to the top of Pikes Peak

Stay tuned for the next part of the retreat…..

STORMY WEATHER

Wednesday, January 20th, 2010

The wind is bending the bamboo in my backyard down to the ground.  I look out the sliding glass door  and  see the skinny stalk of  bamboo that seems to reach to the sky.  It leans and gives when the wind comes and then for a few moments stands back upright.  It twists and turns but when the wind stops, it goes back to its normal state.   Wait, not exactly.  I look again and I realize it’s bowed, not quite straight up like before…..before the storm came.

I’m thinking on this blustery, rainy day how life can blow us over, bend us and just when we think we’re going to break,  the “wind” in our lives jolts us and we stop bending or swaying.  One thing for sure, we have to be able to go with the wind;  if we fight it too much, we will break in half. 

So what is the secret of bending, I wonder?  Is it about surrender?  Is it about allowing ourselves to feel all the emotions that we can when the winds come?  Is it about trusting and knowing that we will return to normal or that we will be forever changed, never to be quite as straight as we once were and that it’s okay to be that way?  Isn’t this the lesson of life?  Letting go of the straightness and riding with the wind no matter how much we want to be straight.   Is it about letting go of the fear that we will break? Is it about relinquishing control?   Tell me the answers, bamboo.  I’m waiting.   

Bamboo:  “I am the one who leans and bends.  I am the one who is not alone…there are others who are bending with me.  I am the one who takes hard hits and I keep getting back up.  I am the one who just is.  I just am.”

Today is a remembrance of someone who took his own life.  He couldn’t bend anymore or perhaps he got tired of bending or he just gave up being.   He couldn’t wait for the winds to stop I guess.   The impact for his family is monumental as they now bend and sway with their own winds.  Stormy weather.